I want him ...

I want him, I think he looks fun.  Yes, I'm sitting at the bar, I see several guys that I think would be fun.  This guy looks attractive, appears to be friendly, we could have some fun.

Much as I enjoy getting another guy off, I need that chance to.  When do I tell him that I'm locked?  Guess he doesn't need to recipricate and a nice cock in my mouth would be nice right now.

Yes, I'm feeling very horny.

Not an easy day

Today hasn't been easy, probably for a couple of reasons.

This morning I was feeling a stinging sensation along the inner ring.  Partly because my balls had retracted as far as they could during the night causing enough of a pull to make everything rather tight.  Things got better after I got in the pool for my morning swim, the water provides some lubrication allowing everything to move without as much friction and everything was starting to stretch eliminating most of the pulling.

It's also now been 2 weeks since I gave up control of the keys.  That awareness is making me want some relief, relief that won't be happening very soon.

Writing about chastity

I first wrote on this blog about 3 years ago.  Since then I've written off and on.  I started wondering today, how does my writing affect my feelings about my chastity.  Does it help reduce the frustration or does it increase it by increasing my awareness?

As one who some days likes to just lie on the bed and masturbate, I'm asking myself, which is more difficult: not being able to do it or knowing that it may be April or May before I have that option again?

A good news day (although not related to chastity)

It looks like I have tickets to 2 World Cup Soccer games in Brazil this summer.  We applied for tickets to 2 games in a ticket lottery, the charge authorization came through on my credit card.  Brazil here we come!! Visa and air line tickets next.

Meanwhile was awakened a couple of times last night as cock was attempting nocturnal erections.  It doesn't help any when after being awakened I start thinking about how long it's going to be until I get some relief. 

The weekend is (almost) over

It's been a busy weekend.  Friday night was the Meet & Greet for the Mr. Twin Cities Leather contest, Saturday was Kink U. 

Kink U had several sessions, I attended a Water Sports presentation and a Sounding demonstration.  Both sessions were very well presented with facilitators who knew their subject well.  I've seen pics of locked guys being sounded, never tried it.

Short discussion with kh suggested breaking the record of my previous longest (7 or 8 weeks), that would make my next opportunity for relief sometime in April or May.  I start filling the cage thinking about going that long as I know what I feel like at about 6 weeks.  I suspect challenges are a good thing.

Woke up this morning with a reminder that I'm not getting hard as cock was struggling against the device.

I love the way my balls feel ....

.... when they want a release and have no clue when it might happen.  In a strange way I find it exciting, ... the anticipation .... the wondering when.

If I stay locked until mid-May it will be my longest ever.  I could be one horny guy when IML comes around.  Tie me up, edge me, lock me up again.

It's like bondage, it's not the real thing until you don't want it any more.

I now have a remote key holder

I now have a remote key holder.  He's put settings in that don't allow me to see when I might next have an opportunity to think about cumming.  So different than being self locked, so nice.  There is something so hot about the frustration of being locked and not able to get hard.  My cock is clearly liking it as it is expanding as much as it can within it's cage.

Here's a short video of my caged cock.

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Last night I did something I probably shouldn't have (imagine that).  I took a "Hotrod 5000" a "male performance enhancer"  It did it's job and certainly made my cock want some extra space and reminded me that it wasn't going to happen.  It didn't get any better when I needed to work on a short project today on a nearby college campus and was seeing so many hot guys.

Why is it that the guys always seem hotter when I'm locked anyway?

Thanks ben

Thanks ben.  I like the 6000s because it doesn't give me much room to expand.  Would still like to find a local kh or at least a kh that i could meet from time to time for cleaning, etc.

Plus with a local kh, i'd be locked more and under more supervision.

Seedpod

Much as I liked the look and feel of the Seedpod it didn't work for swimming, since I'm in the pool 3 or 4 days each week swimming between 15 and 20,000 yards that was a show stopper.

I'm locked back in a CB6000s and have taken a remote lock code using Emlalock (ask me for my "friends"link).  May need to go back to a metal device when I get the chance.

Meanwhile this weekend will be the Twin Cities Leather contest and Kink U is here this weekend too.