Device under Speedo

Device under Speedo

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Friday fun

I had the opportunity to spend some time Friday afternoon with a guy I had chatted with on Recon.  I was working out of town, he lives about 100 miles from where I was working and another 3 plus hours from home making it a decent place to stop.

I had my first diaper experience, his instructions to me were to wear a diaper and have it wet when I arrived.  I was surprised how much piss a diaper will hold and how well it absorbs it.  I drank about 3 liters of fluid on the drive so I made good use of a couple of diapers.  Interesting experience, I needed to get to the point where I really needed to piss to be able to do it in the diaper that was under my jeans.

The key to my Steelworxx Revenge was at home, he couldn't have let me out even if he wanted to.  This was my longest play session where there was no chance that I might get released if only so someone could tease my cock.

We started out with me in a really nice padded and very secure leather hood.  Add a spreader bar and some rope and I wasn't going anywhere.  He seemed to be really enjoying that I couldn't get any bigger than the cage on my cock would allow and there was now way that I was going to shoot.  It was nice to have the opportunity to have a free cock both in my hand and my mouth ... I love sucking cock, especially when I'm well restrained and really horny from being locked.

It was a fun 3 hours.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014


Earlier in the week I started chatting with a guy on Recon who lives between home and where I'm working this week.  Plans are to stop and meet him on my way home Friday.

Today he sent me a text telling me to pick up some Depends after work and he wants me padded for the rest of the week.  Stopped on the way back to the hotel and bought a package of them and put one on before leaving for dinner.

So now I'm back in the hotel room wearing my diaper over my DB as I play on the net.  First time in a diaper, this could be interesting.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Aching to service

It's been less than a week and I'm very horny already. 

Walked over to the 24-hour gym across the street from the hotel early this morning.  Was commando under my gym shorts and was feeling my balls rub my legs.  Saw a couple of guys there who I wanted to drop to my knees and service.  I seem to be spending lots of time thinking about the cock that I can't get to.

Monday, August 25, 2014

My Steelworxx Revenge has arrived

I was out of town for work all of last week.  When I returned on Friday my Steelworxx Revenge was waiting for me.  Wasted no time putting it on, couldn't get the PA lock inserted so put my curved barbell PA back in and left it inside the cage.

Left town for work again this week (a driving trip so no TSA issues) with the keys at home.  I'm locked up all alone in my hotel room.

I am noticing that the Revenge is heavier than any of the devices that I've previously worn.  Not sure if that's why I'm waking up at night more often than normal.

Friday, August 1, 2014

PA - 10 days in

It’s been 10 days since I got my PA.  It appears to be healing well, no swelling.  At times it feels like the skin near the head is dry, I suspect that is a sign of healing.

What causes me to notice it most is when I’m in bed, roll over and the weight of the PA causes the cock to move and pulls it over with a small tug from the weight.  No issues when the cock gets hard.

Shouldn’t be too long until its ready for its real purpose … secure chastity.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

PA report, after 2 days

So far, so good.  A very small amount of blood the first day, none since.  Taking care of the aftercare  They told me that taking zinc and Vitamin C promotes healing so I went to Walgreen's and bought a bottle of both.

Strangest thing so far is this big thing hanging from my cock head when I take a piss, makes me not want to shake it to hard to avoid any damage.

Then there is this strange excitement of having had a hold drilled in your cock so someone can put a lock through it to make enforced chastity more secure and getting hard thinking about not being able to get hard.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

I finally got my PA

I finally got my PA today.  Yes, I'd been thinking about it for a while, it's finally done.  Dan at St. Sabrina's in Minneapolis did it.

I felt it much less than I expected to, especially being a guy who isn't very fond of needles.  I didn't feel much more than when I go to the doctor's office and they draw blood samples for testing.  I was much more apprehensive than I should have been.

Dan was very professional, seemed to take care that everything was sterile and provided good aftercare information.

I've also ordered a Steelworxx Revenge which should arrive mid-August, the PA should be healed by then.

Why did I wait so long?

How am I going to feel when the jewelry becomes a lock?

Meanwhile, I'm off to San Francisco for 5 days including Dore Alley this weekend. Looking forward to a kinky fun weekend.

Monday, May 19, 2014

IML is less than a week away

Looking forward to it.  How submissive might I be?  Who is going to take charge?

(Room reserved at host hotel)

Friday, February 28, 2014

I want him ...

I want him, I think he looks fun.  Yes, I'm sitting at the bar, I see several guys that I think would be fun.  This guy looks attractive, appears to be friendly, we could have some fun.

Much as I enjoy getting another guy off, I need that chance to.  When do I tell him that I'm locked?  Guess he doesn't need to recipricate and a nice cock in my mouth would be nice right now.

Yes, I'm feeling very horny.

Monday, February 24, 2014

Not an easy day

Today hasn't been easy, probably for a couple of reasons.

This morning I was feeling a stinging sensation along the inner ring.  Partly because my balls had retracted as far as they could during the night causing enough of a pull to make everything rather tight.  Things got better after I got in the pool for my morning swim, the water provides some lubrication allowing everything to move without as much friction and everything was starting to stretch eliminating most of the pulling.

It's also now been 2 weeks since I gave up control of the keys.  That awareness is making me want some relief, relief that won't be happening very soon.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Writing about chastity

I first wrote on this blog about 3 years ago.  Since then I've written off and on.  I started wondering today, how does my writing affect my feelings about my chastity.  Does it help reduce the frustration or does it increase it by increasing my awareness?

As one who some days likes to just lie on the bed and masturbate, I'm asking myself, which is more difficult: not being able to do it or knowing that it may be April or May before I have that option again?

Monday, February 17, 2014

A good news day (although not related to chastity)

It looks like I have tickets to 2 World Cup Soccer games in Brazil this summer.  We applied for tickets to 2 games in a ticket lottery, the charge authorization came through on my credit card.  Brazil here we come!! Visa and air line tickets next.

Meanwhile was awakened a couple of times last night as cock was attempting nocturnal erections.  It doesn't help any when after being awakened I start thinking about how long it's going to be until I get some relief. 

Sunday, February 16, 2014

The weekend is (almost) over

It's been a busy weekend.  Friday night was the Meet & Greet for the Mr. Twin Cities Leather contest, Saturday was Kink U

Kink U had several sessions, I attended a Water Sports presentation and a Sounding demonstration.  Both sessions were very well presented with facilitators who knew their subject well.  I've seen pics of locked guys being sounded, never tried it.

Short discussion with kh suggested breaking the record of my previous longest (7 or 8 weeks), that would make my next opportunity for relief sometime in April or May.  I start filling the cage thinking about going that long as I know what I feel like at about 6 weeks.  I suspect challenges are a good thing.

Woke up this morning with a reminder that I'm not getting hard as cock was struggling against the device.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

I love the way my balls feel ....

.... when they want a release and have no clue when it might happen.  In a strange way I find it exciting, ... the anticipation .... the wondering when.

If I stay locked until mid-May it will be my longest ever.  I could be one horny guy when IML comes around.  Tie me up, edge me, lock me up again.

It's like bondage, it's not the real thing until you don't want it any more.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

I now have a remote key holder

I now have a remote key holder.  He's put settings in that don't allow me to see when I might next have an opportunity to think about cumming.  So different than being self locked, so nice.  There is something so hot about the frustration of being locked and not able to get hard.  My cock is clearly liking it as it is expanding as much as it can within it's cage.

Here's a short video of my caged cock.

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Last night I did something I probably shouldn't have (imagine that).  I took a "Hotrod 5000" a "male performance enhancer"  It did it's job and certainly made my cock want some extra space and reminded me that it wasn't going to happen.  It didn't get any better when I needed to work on a short project today on a nearby college campus and was seeing so many hot guys.

Why is it that the guys always seem hotter when I'm locked anyway?

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Thanks ben

Thanks ben.  I like the 6000s because it doesn't give me much room to expand.  Would still like to find a local kh or at least a kh that i could meet from time to time for cleaning, etc.

Plus with a local kh, i'd be locked more and under more supervision.


Much as I liked the look and feel of the Seedpod it didn't work for swimming, since I'm in the pool 3 or 4 days each week swimming between 15 and 20,000 yards that was a show stopper.

I'm locked back in a CB6000s and have taken a remote lock code using Emlalock (ask me for my "friends"link).  May need to go back to a metal device when I get the chance.

Meanwhile this weekend will be the Twin Cities Leather contest and Kink U is here this weekend too.

Friday, January 31, 2014

Seed Pod video

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You asked for pictures, here's some video.  Adding loss of access to my balls is a whole new dimension, seems especially strange when I shower.

Congratulations to the new Mr. Chicago Leather Miguel Torres who was selected last weekend.  I enjoyed the trip to Chicago last weekend

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Putting on the Seedpod Chastity Cage

After my appointment with the doctor earlier in the week, I put on my new Seedpod Chastity Cage.  At first it was a challenge to put it on.  The ring behind the cock and balls is small enough that getting my balls through wasn't easy, it took a couple of tries.

It is secure, its held closed with a hex nut with the padlock blocking access to the hex nut.  It's not very noticeable under my reasonably tight jeans.

It will need to come off as I go through TSA on my flight to Chicago for the Mr. Chicago Leather weekend.  I expect that the device will be locked on during the entire time that I'm in Chicago and then again as soon as I get home (if not as soon as I'm through TSA on the trip home).

Other than greater security, the big difference in this device is that in addition to my cock, I no longer have access to my balls.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

My new cage has been shipped

My Seed Pod Chastity Cage was shipped from Mr. S yesterday.  I want to be wearing it.  The Birdlock needs to come off for a couple of hours for a doctor appointment next week which will be a perfect opportunity to put on the new device.  Not only does it keep the cock protected but also the balls.

Other than that I'm planning a trip to Chicago in just over a week for Mr. Chicago Leather.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Last night was difficult

I'm not sure why last night seemed so difficult.  I was awakened several times by attempts at nocturnal erections which, of course, I couldn't do any thing about.  All it did was remind me that the rules are rather strict and I won't be getting off much this year.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

What's a guy to do?

It's been a little chilly here in Minnesota, I can't jerk off on these cold winter days.  What to do?

Over the weekend I tried one of those herbal erectile enhancing pills.  It certainly kept my cage full, the porn I kept looking at certainly may have been an added factor.

Then there were the tit clamps.  I got a couple of new sets of nipple toys, confirmed my nips are sensitive (of course I knew that).

It hasn't been that long. I'd really like to jerk off, it's going to take some time until I just accept that I can't.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Comfort in revealing fetishes

Why do I, and I think many others, feel more comfortable revealing or discussing our fetishes at sometimes/some places more than others?  

Take, for example, my chastity.  In cities where bars have “naked night” I’ve attended wearing a device and found a number of people interested in it.  Same with sex clubs and I’ll admit that watching a jack off show when your cock is locked is extremely frustrating , makes one extremely horny and certainly is a reminder of one’s situation.  

Often at bars/clubs I’m very open about my interests or if I’m currently locked.  On a couple of occasions I’ve met potential key holders because of that openness.  In some other public places I’d have no problem revealing or discussing chastity or being locked.

On the other extreme is the pool and the gym.  Although I might be getting better over time, I still take most of my shower with my suit on.  I’ve gotten to the point where I will take off my suit toward the end of my shower and face the wall, then start toweling off and wrap the towel around my waist prior to leaving.  I’ll generally start dressing while still wearing the towel unless I’m in a location where no one will see me.

What do I lose or gain by hiding the fact that I don’t have access to part of my body?  Would anyone that I care anything about think of me negatively because of it?  The rest of my life is rather public, why do I have the hang-up with this?

On a completely (well almost completely) different topic, while web surfing the other day I found The Horse Fair (Fickstutenmarkt)  Typically in the sexual sense of the work I not that much of an anal guy.  Sure I like the occasional toy or finger in my ass, even an occasional cock.  However this event seems like it could be heaven (figuratively as being an Atheist I don’t believe the place exists).   

Makes on want to go to Europe, it’s been about 6 months since I was last there.  It’s been longer since I’ve been to Germany; my last time in Germany was in September 2001 when my return home was delayed due to events in New York City.