Device under Speedo

Device under Speedo

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Fire In The Hole

"Fire In The Hole" was part of the label on the lube I used on an ass toy I was using to message my prostrate the last couple of days.  Yes it felt warm, not hot as the label suggests.  Felt good to have something in my ass, however, I wasn't able to get anything released from my prostrate.  The little bit of heat felt good.

Not long after that it seemed like every squad car in the city passed down the street.  Apparently the police fired some shots during a drug investigation about 6 or 7 blocks away.  The TV news report tonight said 17 or 18 shots.  They get more excitement than I do, I've had nearly a month without even being able to get hard.  Tomorrow completes my first full month locked.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Beginning of a long weekend

I took today off work making it a 3 day weekend.  Partly because it looked like it would be a nice day (it is) and partly because I need to burn a few more days vacation between now and the end of the year and days off in August are generally nicer days than days off in December here in Minnesota.  I didn't really have any plans for the day.

I started the day with a 3,700 meter swim.  I've been swimming a lot lately, averaging over 25,000 yards a week and have now swum over 100,000 yards in August which I suspect is the most yards I've covered in the pool in a month since high school.  I'm feeling good, leaving the Y at 163 lbs. which has been very consistent for the past year.  I followed that by meeting some friends for breakfast, a breakfast lasting nearly 3 hours and breaking up around noon.

After driving around a couple of city lakes and arriving home, I looked to see if there was anything interesting laying around the pool.  Only one there and she was the wrong gender to be of any interest.

Went upstairs and really felt the need to jerk off, it's been 4 weeks now since the Birdlocked went on and the key went off to Chicago the first of August.  I'm ready for some relief.  To make matters worse, my MINIMUM time locked is 2 months meaning it's sometime after the end of September that I'll have a chance to do that.

Not having access to my cock, my ass was the next best thing.  I put on ankle cuffs, attached them to a spreader bar and shoved a vibrator up my ass and worked my nips.  After a time, I decided to try a bigger ass toy, may need to use the bigger toys more often as my ass felt rather tight although the toy felt rather good.

I've been looking at my swimming schedule for next year a bit, partly because I'm planning to swim a meet in Italy next June and am looking at other places I may go on the trip.  Right now I'm thinking I may go to Berlin for a few days before and to Poland after.  I'm kind of thinking that I'll want to be home in time for Twin Cities Pride in late June.  The scary part is as much as I want to jerk off now, I'm wondering what it would be locked from the end of swimming in June until the end of the year.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Attempting nocturnal erections

I've been awakened during a few recent nights while attempting nocturnal erections.  The Birdlock is the smallest device I've ever worn leaving almost no room for expansion.  My cock isn't even able to stretch out.  It's been nearly 4 weeks since I locked it on and I don't have enough room to even become semi-hard.

Spent some time last night looking at porn.  That didn't help.  Just kept seeing things I'd like to do or have done but without access to my cock and unable to.  I'm not even to the half way point of my minimum time locked.

Strange as it may seem, I often find myself thinking about various potential adventures in long-term chastity.  Things like getting out but only able to jack off to ejaculation once before being locked again, very limited ejaculations for a period of time, being locked except for swim meets, etc.  As frustrating as it is to not have access to my cock I find myself thinking about only having very infrequent access.

So today is my last work day of the week, taking Friday off to have a long weekend.  We'll see what happens.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It's the weekend

Finally the weekend. I actually worked 5 days this week something that for various reasons I haven't done since the end of June.  Likely will take next Friday off just for the sake of doing it and then the following Friday to make Labor Day a 4 day weekend.  Started last night meeting a friend for Happy Hour.  HH lasted nearly 5 hours, we ran up a $150 tab between the 2 of us that included only a small amount of food.  No wonder I was feeling dehydrated this morning and I was down to 161.2 lbs. after my morning swim.

The vibrator in my ass felt good the other night, it just isn't the same as a nice release that would feel really good about now.  Probably didn't need to rub the BenGay into my balls, they still have feeling even though they don't get relief.

It's a nice afternoon here, out running a few errands and stopped by my local pizza place bar for a beer.  A couple of good looking guys sitting at the bar, I've been locked long enough now that the guys I'm seeing just keep looking better and better.  I was thinking about going out to the pool at my apartment building, that might be to much.  Web surfing just makes me want to get hard.  It's now been 3 weeks since the Birdlock went on, it's certainly doing it's job.

Thursday, August 18, 2011


Last weekend was spent at a cabin, a few miles from the Canadian border, with a bunch of straight friends.  The CB didn't bother me and I didn't spend any time thinking about it.

I'm finding the Birdlock much more comfortable to wear than the CB2K or CB3K, however, it doesn't leave as much room to expand (I have the "mini" version) and I'm usually filling the cage.

It's been nearly 3 weeks since I locked it on and 2 1/2 weeks since I mailed off the keys.  I'm ready for some relief and am reminded of that every evening and in the mornings when my cock is attempting morning wood.  Looking at porn only increases the frustration.  I think tonight I'll have something vibrating in my ass and see what happens.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Morning Wood

Nasty case of morning wood today and couldn't do anything to relieve it.  Played with my nips a bit but that seemed to just make it worse.  Two weeks ago tonight I locked the device on.  Off to a cabin in Northern Minnesota in a couple of hours for a weekend of relaxation.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Would you play "Chastity Bingo"

Chastity Bingo is a wigit on the LockedM4M website

If I did the math right, using the "Indulgent" option you have about a 75% chance of being out within 6 months and 95% chance of being out within a year.

"Strict" gives you a 50% chance of being out within 6 months and 75% chance of being out within a year.

"Extreme" is just that.  A 34% chance at 6 months, 55% at a year and 80% chance that you'll be out within 2 years.  The chance of being locked for 3 or more years is about 10%.  Ouch.

Would you?

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Cleaning up

I was noticing the device was pulling on some hair.  Decided that a bit of clean up was necessary.

The finished product looked like this:

So the 2nd week begins, I'll be outside today with a couple hundred thousand of my closest friends at the 2nd day of Art Fair.  Expect that as yesterday there will be many hot guys.

I decided I might as well have some fun with this, you can now find this blog at or which is my name on Recon.

Friday, August 5, 2011


A friend came over last night.  He showed me his Carrerra Concept belt and we played with some light bondage (both ways).  He says the Carrerra isn't very good for working out, limits the amount you can bend and the showers.  The belt fits above the hips.

We played with some mutual bondage, using some of my collection of heavier metal toys.  Nips suffered.  BenGay on my balls were my introduction to bed last night.

I've been volunteer working at an art fair all day today and will be both Saturday and Sunday.  Noticing lots of hot guys, suppose any need their cocks serviced?

Swam this morning before coming to the fair, weight leaving the Y was 161.2, lowest in a long time.  The chastity keeps me focused, the swimming helps relieve the frustration.

It was a week ago tonight that I locked on the Birdlock, I'm not sure which frustrates me more, not being able or knowing it will be a long time until I am able.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

It will be a busy weekend

A busy weekend coming up.  I work at an art fair that opens Friday and runs through Sunday so I'll be taking off from my real job after today.  I'll be at Art Fair from early morning thru about 10 PM each day.

Physically no problems, I'm making sure that I use plenty of lotion to avoid chafing and can at time feel my cock filing the cage as it tries to expand.  I need to shave some hair that I can get to to avoid pulling.  I keep thinking to myself that this is going to be a long time, 6 weeks was a long time and this will be longer.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Note to Control

Blindfolds are always good, they add a certain amount of mystery and suspense.  Not being able to hear what is going on around you is good to.

My next swim meet will probably be in the first part of December (possibly one in November), then late-January.  This season I swam 8 meets, next season I may swim 1 or 2 more with the last one being in June.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

The key is out of my possession, locked for at least 2 months

The key to my CB is now on its way to Smarmaduke I don't think he will have much sympathy for me.

I don't know how many times my cock has been locked in some type of device for a period of at least a full month.  Probably 6, 8 10 times.  When I'm not locked I have a habit of j/o both in the evening and morning if for no other reason that I can.

At times, I start missing chastity.  I like bondage and to a certain extent chastity is the ultimate form of bondage, you give control over access to your cock to another guy.

The last few times I've been in a CB2000, this time is the Birdlock.  I'm already noticing that the Birdlock doesn't allow as much breathing, less ventilation than the post walls of the CB2000.  I have the "mini" version of the Birdlock which is rather short and doesn't allow much expansion, I can't get to anything that even resembles being hard as I can in some other devices.

My previous longest is somewhere between 6 and 7 weeks, this will be for a minimum of 2 months and upto 4 months.  I already want to lay down and j/o, I know that I'm at the point that I'd shoot across the room.

I can only ask what I let myself get into, this is going to be a frustrating time.  The only cock I'll have is the one someone puts in my mouth.  If I was able, I'd get hard just thinking about it.

Unrelated, surfing tonight and saw a great Matt Damon

All for now.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Comment reply

2 months is the minimum, we'll see how lucky I feel after 2 months and my cock is still locked up.  Swimming in the Birdlock has worked fine, swam nearly 4,000 meters Saturday, 2,800 meters yesterday and 4,500 yards today, each swim was an hour to an hour and a half with no chafing problems.  Much better than the CB2000/CB3000 and I think a bit more secure

Key holder

It looks like I have a keyholder who lives an easy flight from Minneapolis.  Initial time locked will be a minimum of 2 months, maximum of 4 months.  2 months slightly exceeds my previous longest so this will be an interesting experience. 

Told him, for starters, I would like to be locked for between 2 and 4 months (getting out sometime during October or November), exact time not known to me. Games of chance could be fun as it would add excitement at time when I will be rather horny.  Swim meets start again in December, perhaps if this works out we can then work something out for between meets.  Time will tell.

I'll mail the key off as soon as I get the address, filling the cage just thinking about it.