One of the things I'd forgotten during my long layoff is how it feels to know that I'm not even going to be able to get hard for 6 weeks. My balls feel like they want to release as I'm sitting at a bar typing this. How will I feel when I know it might be 6 months? I'm both excited and nervous about that.
Another thing that I remembered, but not the intensity is how hot guys I might not pay that much attention to look. There were several on the bus tonight who I wanted to shove their cocks in my mouth right now, same with the guy just to the right of me here at the bar.
I'm going to Denver for work next week. Previously I went to a sauna/bath there while locked and watched a jerk off show, talk frustration!