Device under Speedo

Device under Speedo

Sunday, October 2, 2011

I think I'm healed

however, I do need to admit that I'm rather enjoying being able to get hard whenever I want and jerk myself off.  Strange, I also miss someone else being able to decide when that happens.  I think I need to be locked again.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Not healed, but ....

I certainly have a way to go before the healing is complete, however, I was really missing my cock being locked.  I decided to try something.

I put on my CB2000 with the long points of intrigue.  I suspect the chafing problem I developed will be okay until I go to the pool and swim tomorrow, I'll take it off then.  I think the serious chafing takes place when I'm swimming, especially the continuous rubbing that comes when I kick.  I think it happens less when I pull with a pull bouy and don't kick.

We'll see how long it takes until I try to get hard and the points start to bite.

Monday, September 5, 2011


My little injury is beginning to heal although I think it may take a while to heal completely.  I'm having 2 completely opposite feelings.

First, I'm missing being locked.  I had expected to be locked much longer and not knowing when I'd been able to cum, even get hard.  There is something hot about not knowing when it will happen next, having someone else decide when it is going to happen.  I was expecting 2 to 4 months and was running possibilities longer than that through my mind.  What if I could only come a handful of times during a year, what if when I got out I was allowed cum once and then relocked?  So many possibilities.

On the other hand it's nice to be able to get hard.  Yesterday I did cum for the first time in over a month, I put a spreader bar between my legs, hood and gag and enjoyed.  Yes, I did shoot a long way.

Due to the problems, I won't be wearing the Birdlock Mini for an extended period, I may look at the dimensions of the regular Birdlock and see if it looks like a possibility.  The "Punisher" looks interesting although again I'm not sure it's long term.  My guess right now is I'll be in a CB2000.  The open question is when? 

Thursday, September 1, 2011


A problem developed.  The ring on the tube was tight enough that it started ripping away skin.

I tried moving the tube and my sack, however I wasn't able to move it anything enough to take the pressure off to allow healing. 

Looking back I don't think there is anyway that I could have used enough of anything (I used both lotions and vasoline type lube as you can't use silicone lube with the Birdlock) to prevent some kind of damage as there is a constant pressure.  I've never had similar problems with either a CB2000 or CB3000.  We'll see how long it takes to heal, then try again.  I guess it's part of live and learn.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Fire In The Hole

"Fire In The Hole" was part of the label on the lube I used on an ass toy I was using to message my prostrate the last couple of days.  Yes it felt warm, not hot as the label suggests.  Felt good to have something in my ass, however, I wasn't able to get anything released from my prostrate.  The little bit of heat felt good.

Not long after that it seemed like every squad car in the city passed down the street.  Apparently the police fired some shots during a drug investigation about 6 or 7 blocks away.  The TV news report tonight said 17 or 18 shots.  They get more excitement than I do, I've had nearly a month without even being able to get hard.  Tomorrow completes my first full month locked.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Beginning of a long weekend

I took today off work making it a 3 day weekend.  Partly because it looked like it would be a nice day (it is) and partly because I need to burn a few more days vacation between now and the end of the year and days off in August are generally nicer days than days off in December here in Minnesota.  I didn't really have any plans for the day.

I started the day with a 3,700 meter swim.  I've been swimming a lot lately, averaging over 25,000 yards a week and have now swum over 100,000 yards in August which I suspect is the most yards I've covered in the pool in a month since high school.  I'm feeling good, leaving the Y at 163 lbs. which has been very consistent for the past year.  I followed that by meeting some friends for breakfast, a breakfast lasting nearly 3 hours and breaking up around noon.

After driving around a couple of city lakes and arriving home, I looked to see if there was anything interesting laying around the pool.  Only one there and she was the wrong gender to be of any interest.

Went upstairs and really felt the need to jerk off, it's been 4 weeks now since the Birdlocked went on and the key went off to Chicago the first of August.  I'm ready for some relief.  To make matters worse, my MINIMUM time locked is 2 months meaning it's sometime after the end of September that I'll have a chance to do that.

Not having access to my cock, my ass was the next best thing.  I put on ankle cuffs, attached them to a spreader bar and shoved a vibrator up my ass and worked my nips.  After a time, I decided to try a bigger ass toy, may need to use the bigger toys more often as my ass felt rather tight although the toy felt rather good.

I've been looking at my swimming schedule for next year a bit, partly because I'm planning to swim a meet in Italy next June and am looking at other places I may go on the trip.  Right now I'm thinking I may go to Berlin for a few days before and to Poland after.  I'm kind of thinking that I'll want to be home in time for Twin Cities Pride in late June.  The scary part is as much as I want to jerk off now, I'm wondering what it would be locked from the end of swimming in June until the end of the year.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Attempting nocturnal erections

I've been awakened during a few recent nights while attempting nocturnal erections.  The Birdlock is the smallest device I've ever worn leaving almost no room for expansion.  My cock isn't even able to stretch out.  It's been nearly 4 weeks since I locked it on and I don't have enough room to even become semi-hard.

Spent some time last night looking at porn.  That didn't help.  Just kept seeing things I'd like to do or have done but without access to my cock and unable to.  I'm not even to the half way point of my minimum time locked.

Strange as it may seem, I often find myself thinking about various potential adventures in long-term chastity.  Things like getting out but only able to jack off to ejaculation once before being locked again, very limited ejaculations for a period of time, being locked except for swim meets, etc.  As frustrating as it is to not have access to my cock I find myself thinking about only having very infrequent access.

So today is my last work day of the week, taking Friday off to have a long weekend.  We'll see what happens.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It's the weekend

Finally the weekend. I actually worked 5 days this week something that for various reasons I haven't done since the end of June.  Likely will take next Friday off just for the sake of doing it and then the following Friday to make Labor Day a 4 day weekend.  Started last night meeting a friend for Happy Hour.  HH lasted nearly 5 hours, we ran up a $150 tab between the 2 of us that included only a small amount of food.  No wonder I was feeling dehydrated this morning and I was down to 161.2 lbs. after my morning swim.

The vibrator in my ass felt good the other night, it just isn't the same as a nice release that would feel really good about now.  Probably didn't need to rub the BenGay into my balls, they still have feeling even though they don't get relief.

It's a nice afternoon here, out running a few errands and stopped by my local pizza place bar for a beer.  A couple of good looking guys sitting at the bar, I've been locked long enough now that the guys I'm seeing just keep looking better and better.  I was thinking about going out to the pool at my apartment building, that might be to much.  Web surfing just makes me want to get hard.  It's now been 3 weeks since the Birdlock went on, it's certainly doing it's job.

Thursday, August 18, 2011


Last weekend was spent at a cabin, a few miles from the Canadian border, with a bunch of straight friends.  The CB didn't bother me and I didn't spend any time thinking about it.

I'm finding the Birdlock much more comfortable to wear than the CB2K or CB3K, however, it doesn't leave as much room to expand (I have the "mini" version) and I'm usually filling the cage.

It's been nearly 3 weeks since I locked it on and 2 1/2 weeks since I mailed off the keys.  I'm ready for some relief and am reminded of that every evening and in the mornings when my cock is attempting morning wood.  Looking at porn only increases the frustration.  I think tonight I'll have something vibrating in my ass and see what happens.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Morning Wood

Nasty case of morning wood today and couldn't do anything to relieve it.  Played with my nips a bit but that seemed to just make it worse.  Two weeks ago tonight I locked the device on.  Off to a cabin in Northern Minnesota in a couple of hours for a weekend of relaxation.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Would you play "Chastity Bingo"

Chastity Bingo is a wigit on the LockedM4M website

If I did the math right, using the "Indulgent" option you have about a 75% chance of being out within 6 months and 95% chance of being out within a year.

"Strict" gives you a 50% chance of being out within 6 months and 75% chance of being out within a year.

"Extreme" is just that.  A 34% chance at 6 months, 55% at a year and 80% chance that you'll be out within 2 years.  The chance of being locked for 3 or more years is about 10%.  Ouch.

Would you?

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Cleaning up

I was noticing the device was pulling on some hair.  Decided that a bit of clean up was necessary.

The finished product looked like this:

So the 2nd week begins, I'll be outside today with a couple hundred thousand of my closest friends at the 2nd day of Art Fair.  Expect that as yesterday there will be many hot guys.

I decided I might as well have some fun with this, you can now find this blog at or which is my name on Recon.

Friday, August 5, 2011


A friend came over last night.  He showed me his Carrerra Concept belt and we played with some light bondage (both ways).  He says the Carrerra isn't very good for working out, limits the amount you can bend and the showers.  The belt fits above the hips.

We played with some mutual bondage, using some of my collection of heavier metal toys.  Nips suffered.  BenGay on my balls were my introduction to bed last night.

I've been volunteer working at an art fair all day today and will be both Saturday and Sunday.  Noticing lots of hot guys, suppose any need their cocks serviced?

Swam this morning before coming to the fair, weight leaving the Y was 161.2, lowest in a long time.  The chastity keeps me focused, the swimming helps relieve the frustration.

It was a week ago tonight that I locked on the Birdlock, I'm not sure which frustrates me more, not being able or knowing it will be a long time until I am able.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

It will be a busy weekend

A busy weekend coming up.  I work at an art fair that opens Friday and runs through Sunday so I'll be taking off from my real job after today.  I'll be at Art Fair from early morning thru about 10 PM each day.

Physically no problems, I'm making sure that I use plenty of lotion to avoid chafing and can at time feel my cock filing the cage as it tries to expand.  I need to shave some hair that I can get to to avoid pulling.  I keep thinking to myself that this is going to be a long time, 6 weeks was a long time and this will be longer.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Note to Control

Blindfolds are always good, they add a certain amount of mystery and suspense.  Not being able to hear what is going on around you is good to.

My next swim meet will probably be in the first part of December (possibly one in November), then late-January.  This season I swam 8 meets, next season I may swim 1 or 2 more with the last one being in June.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

The key is out of my possession, locked for at least 2 months

The key to my CB is now on its way to Smarmaduke I don't think he will have much sympathy for me.

I don't know how many times my cock has been locked in some type of device for a period of at least a full month.  Probably 6, 8 10 times.  When I'm not locked I have a habit of j/o both in the evening and morning if for no other reason that I can.

At times, I start missing chastity.  I like bondage and to a certain extent chastity is the ultimate form of bondage, you give control over access to your cock to another guy.

The last few times I've been in a CB2000, this time is the Birdlock.  I'm already noticing that the Birdlock doesn't allow as much breathing, less ventilation than the post walls of the CB2000.  I have the "mini" version of the Birdlock which is rather short and doesn't allow much expansion, I can't get to anything that even resembles being hard as I can in some other devices.

My previous longest is somewhere between 6 and 7 weeks, this will be for a minimum of 2 months and upto 4 months.  I already want to lay down and j/o, I know that I'm at the point that I'd shoot across the room.

I can only ask what I let myself get into, this is going to be a frustrating time.  The only cock I'll have is the one someone puts in my mouth.  If I was able, I'd get hard just thinking about it.

Unrelated, surfing tonight and saw a great Matt Damon

All for now.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Comment reply

2 months is the minimum, we'll see how lucky I feel after 2 months and my cock is still locked up.  Swimming in the Birdlock has worked fine, swam nearly 4,000 meters Saturday, 2,800 meters yesterday and 4,500 yards today, each swim was an hour to an hour and a half with no chafing problems.  Much better than the CB2000/CB3000 and I think a bit more secure

Key holder

It looks like I have a keyholder who lives an easy flight from Minneapolis.  Initial time locked will be a minimum of 2 months, maximum of 4 months.  2 months slightly exceeds my previous longest so this will be an interesting experience. 

Told him, for starters, I would like to be locked for between 2 and 4 months (getting out sometime during October or November), exact time not known to me. Games of chance could be fun as it would add excitement at time when I will be rather horny.  Swim meets start again in December, perhaps if this works out we can then work something out for between meets.  Time will tell.

I'll mail the key off as soon as I get the address, filling the cage just thinking about it.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Birdlocked III

Swam again today for a little over an hour with no problems.  Considering options if nobody claims the key.  May use a realtor lockbox with TimeLock but prefer not to need to do that.

Since I don't see email addresses for comments, you can email me at

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Key claiming

Capone -
Send me an email at iamalltiedup @ gmail . com and we'll see how to work something out.  Need to do something before I take it out and j/o.

Birdlocked II

 Swam this morning wearing the Birdlock without any problems.  Wearing this device for a period measured in months shouldn't present any physical problems.  Really excited to give up control of the key (come claim it) and let someone else decide when I next get to cum.

I did not j/o before locking it on, had I, I may have decided that it felt to good to give up the opportunity.

On Recon:

Friday, July 29, 2011


Just locked the Birdlock back on, now someone needs to take the key to insure it stays on.  Could be on for a long time.

Contact here or on Recon SkyInMpls

Thursday, July 28, 2011

It's been a long time .....

.... both since I've written and since my cock has been locked in the cage where it belongs.

I've got to admit it is nice to be able to play with it, get my self hard and relieve myself whenever I'm in the mood.  There may be something strange about getting hard thinking about not being able to get hard, but someone else needs to start deciding when I'm going to do it.

I'm ready to turn control over to someone who will make me earn my way out.  I'm ready to take care of your's knowing that mine won't be doing anything.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Long time

Been a long time since I've written.  Haven't been locked most of that time and must admit it's really nice to be able to get myself hard, especially when I expect it won't be long until I'm locked away again without access to the key.

Would really like to find a KH somewhere near Minneapolis (within an hour or so) who can make periodic adjustments to the device and keep everything under it smooth and get whatever pleasure they want.  Leave July 2nd for meet in Hawaii and back home about 10 days later .... locked for the remainder of the year?   ....

Thursday, May 5, 2011


Got back from the sIwim meet in Phoenix and finally locked on the Birdlocked tonight.  I may have made a mistake in ordering the small ring, we'll see.

I was good and did not jo before putting it on, had I done that I may have thought it felt good and not locked myself up.  Another meet in 9 days, then not until July.  Should be locked between meets and perhaps for 6 months or so after the July meet.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Haven't written

I got out for a swim meet that was last weekend, I swam well swimming best times in 3 of my 4 events.  Thursday morning I'll be flying to Arizona for another meet swimming on Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

Got waxed before the meet so for the most part everything is smooth with a few pubes above my cock.  The balls and shaft are completely smooth.

Plan to try on my new Birdlocked.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Misc. stuff

Strange dream the other night.  My dream was that I woke up one morning and found the cb laying on the bed.  Alas, when I woke up, that wasn't the case.

To a few questions and comments that I have received:
- Over the years I've worn a cb through airport security many times without any issues.  I know that this has been the case at airports in Minneapolis, Denver, Atlanta and perhaps a few others.
- Why did you agree to get locked up between swim meets?  I don't know that I have a real answer except that I'd been unlocked for an extended period of time and was missing it.  Now I have a new Birdlocked and want to try it, 10 or 11 days is a good start with a new device.
- Is this the longest you have gone locked up?  About 7 weeks, I've gone 6 a couple of times and a month a time or two more.
-  Where did you meet your keyholder?  On line.  A local guy would be ideal, it just hasn't happened ... yet.
- How do you hide your CB during swim practice? I wear a drag suit which isn't all that tight against the body.  Actually once I get in the water I'm not sure anyone would notice, it's while on the deck that someone might.  I've gotten to the point that I'll take my suit off in the shower, most of the time I don't really care if someone sees it. If anyone has noticed, none has made any comments.

All for now.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

A Long Weekend

I've spent the weekend in a hotel looking at art work submitted to exhibit at a summer art fair.  There is one particularly hot guy in the room that I'd love to get with.  Not doing much, I just wanted to get hard.

I did get out one of the vibrating ass toys, felt so good.  It's been 4 weeks now since I had a chance to cum, even to get hard.  Yes, I'm at the point where I really want to go and jerk myself off, I want to feel the cum when my balls release.

I'm feeling a bit of chafing which serves to remind me that I'm wearing the device, it's also reminding me of what I can't do.  The frustration continues.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Birdlocked has arrived and a visitor

The Birdlocked I'd ordered from Mr. S arrived Wednesday.  Interesting looking device.  I'd like to put it on, however, that won't be happening until I get out of the CB2000.  The swim meet that I get out for is 3 weeks away.  Until then I only get to fanticize about wearing it.  It certainly doesn't look like something that one will slip out of.

Had a visitor Sunday, a guy I'd long been chatting with on Recon.  Was nice to get a chance to play with cock, even if it's not mine.

Got a surprise this week.  I got a message on Facebook from a regular at a bar that I spend some time at.  The message asked if I was interested in seeing some pics of him naked.  My first thought was that his FB account had been hacked.  When I first met him, I thought he might be gay, his profile says "interested in women"  I first sent him a note asking if his account had been hacked, he responded that he had intended to send me that.  Last night, sitting at the bar, he showed me pics he had on his Blackberry.  Ummm possibilities, cute guy, could be fun.

Busy weekend, all for now.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Just ordered the Birdlocked

Actually the Mr. S. version which they call "The Boy Trainer" It's on sale now for $99.95.  It should be here by the end of the week but I won't be able to wear it until mid-April when the CB2000 comes off for a swim meet.  After the meet, the new device goes on until a meet at the end of April.  After a mid-May meet I'll stay locked until a meet in July, then perhaps, until the end of the year.

I'm not liking the attempts at morning wood, up until 3 weeks ago that would be a time for some relief, a chance to empty the balls.  After 3 weeks without even being able to get fully hard, I'm really feeling the need for relief.  What's a locked up gay guy to do?

Friday, March 18, 2011

St. Patrick's Day

Went out to a St. Patrick's Day celebration at a place know as "The Local" last night.  It's a few blocks from where I live in downtown Minneapolis.  The Local claims to be the #1 seller of Jamison's Irish, they've just introduced their own brand which probably brought in some extra people.

I'm horny enough now that I was ready to drop and service all of them (the men anyway).  The frustration is certainly building, especially when I know I won't be getting hard for nearly another month.

I'm at Happy Hour now, it isn't any better even though the guys aren't as good looking.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Into my 3rd week

I'm now 3 days into my 3rd week in a CB2000.  3 plus weeks without a chance to cum, even to get hard. 4 plus more weeks until I get out for my next swim meet.  uggg.

I'm finding that I don't make as much of an effort to hide the CB as I have on previous adventures in chastity.  I'll take my suit off while showering after I've been swimming, something I do nearly every day and I'll use the urinals in a public restroom.  I don't know if anyone has noticed, no one has said or asked anything.

Still being awakened most nights by my attempts at nocturnal erections.  That I'm wearing the medium length points of intrigue isn't helping, although they aren't nearly as painful as the long ones.

Still thinking of getting the Birdlocked device as after the swimming season is over I expect to be locked for several months.  I'm getting a bit of chafing in the CB2000 and am hoping that the silicon device with it's different ring shape may help.  At one time I was looking at a device from New Zealand but can't remember the name and haven't been able to find it.

Ready to take care of someone's cock since I can't do anything with my own.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Nine Days.

It's been 9 days, my balls are already needing some relief.  That, however, is more than a month away.  The only thing for sure is that a multi-month experience beginning later in the year will be interesting.

Being away from home this week isn't making things any easier.  Lack of the normal distractions of home only leaves me with more time thinking about the relief I'm unable to get.

The device is reasonably comfortable if I'm not trying to get hard.  Use of ample lotion is keeping chafing away.  From a comfort standpoint, it could stay on for a long time.

I'm thinking of ordering the Birdlocked device for next time.  It appears that the silicone may be more comfortable than the hard plastic of the CB2000.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Ending the first week

I admit it, I want to get hard, it's been nearly a week.  I'd been doing it every day, and more than once each day.  I've been trying some other stimulation, vibrating insertables, nip clamps.  I'm not sure that it helps, it just makes me want to get hard again.  The meet for which the CB comes off is still 6 weekends from this.

I woke up about 2:45 this morning attempting a nocturnal erection. I'm wearing the medium length points of intrigue, while not painful as the long ones they do get my attention.

Since I can't take care of my own, I'm craving taking someone else's in my mouth.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Day 5 - Friday

I woke up early this morning, my body was attempting morning wood.  Decided that there wasn't any reason to stay in bed so did some of the normal morning stuff.  Left early for my morning swim and got in 5,000 yards before heading to work.  There seemed to be more hot guys in the shower than normal for that time of day.

This will be my first weekend locked, no real plans yet.  Fly do Denver Sunday evening for a few days.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

4th Day

One of the things I'd forgotten during my long layoff is how it feels to know that I'm not even going to be able to get hard for 6 weeks.  My balls feel like they want to release as I'm sitting at a bar typing this.  How will I feel when I know it might be 6 months?  I'm both excited and nervous about that.

Another thing that I remembered, but not the intensity is how hot guys I might not pay that much attention to look.  There were several on the bus tonight who I wanted to shove their cocks in my mouth right now, same with the guy just to the right of me here at the bar.

I'm going to Denver for work next week.  Previously I went to a sauna/bath there while locked and watched a jerk off show, talk frustration!

Where I think I want to go

For the remainder of the year, I want to be locked (much) more often than not.  My limit is not beingI locked when I'm competing in a swim meet.  My current plans for meets are April 16-17, April 29-May 1, May 15 and a 4 day meet in Honolulu the weekend after 4th of July.  I expect to be locked between meets.

After the July meet, I'd like to try 3 to 6 months.  Just don't tell me how long before I'm safely and securely locked.

As I said, the key is on the West Coast.  It would be nice if it were closer by and someone could be sure it was kept properly smooth, abused, etc.

Return to Chastity - Feb. 28, 2011

My cock had been freely available to me since last summer.  I was taking full advantage of it, at a minimum I'd get hard every evening when going to bed and again in the morning.  There was an easy to reach cum rag on or near the bed and a large bottle of lube next to the bed.  I'd jerk off "because I can" and, of course, it feels so good.

But I was missing being locked.

Monday Feb. 28th that changed.  I locked my CB2000 back on, first with the long "Points of Intrigue."  Tuesday I contacted a person who had held my key in the past, changed the long points (can't handle those long term) for medium points and mailed the key to the West Coast.

I'm now locked in a CB2000 until I swim in a swim meet in mid-April, nearly 7 weeks away.

My background

I played with chastity from time to time for the past few years, my longest time locked is 6 weeks which I've done a few times.  I own both a CB2000 and CB3000, the CB2000 works better for me as it doesn't allow me room to expand.